Sook Chen,
Hey love. How are you? I'm not so good. I need to talk to you, but I don't know how to describe the way I feel. I always come to see you, but other people are out there, so I don't get to say much. How is your mom doing? I know you are watching over her, but she doesn't seem to be doing well. I'd love to talk to her, but I never know what to say. I want to sit in your room, and talk to you, and look at your things, and remember the fun we used to have, but I'm sure she wouldn't like that. That must be something like a sanctuary to her. Please let her know that I want to help her, and I am always here. I miss you so much. Please, give me a sign so I know you are still here. My life is a living hell right now, and you were the only one I could talk to who actually cared. It's not the same having to hold everything in. It's so hard. Lissa is sitting here with me. She says she loves and misses you. We all do so much it's unbearable. I need to talk to you. Death has been on my mind for months now. You had so much to live for hun. You were so special! You still are. You were so important to everyone. I'm just like a back up friend to everyone. Nothing great. I guess I should be thanking the Lord for putting me here, but I can't. Things get so hard, and I don't feel I can handle it anymore. Well, I should be going. I love you Sook Chen !
Love Jessica.Lili
